The Truth We Died For

Sunday, October 31, 2010

I don't need a laptop.

Hello I am an emo guy. Thus, I shall say "I hate the world, someone kill me now please." I have no self esteem, I'm a useless asshole. When I think too much, I think that the world is against me. When I say or do stuff that make people sad, I feel like the worst fucking guy in the world. Why? Because a world filled with happiness simply makes me feel SO much better. Why allow a few words to change your mood. It ALWAYS happens. No matter who, it just happens.

I hate sadness. I can't stand sadness. It's at times of sadness where my heart simply feels heavy. As in literally heavy. It's weird because feelings are something that have no weight and when you think of feelings, it literally pulls down on your heart and you can really feel it. However, is it just a psychological thing? But who cares, my heart feels so light it can shine in your damn face. But nonetheless, people HAVE to get sad and that tugging feeling SUCKS.

Purple plane. Sleek.

Credits for picture. Click here!

“When you sit with a nice girl for two hours, it seems like two minutes. When you sit on a hot stove for two minutes, it seems like two hours that’s relativity.” -Albert Einstein

Yours truly,
Ben

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

I'm very happy now!! ^^

Maybe some people will know what it feels like to always be second to another person. I've never once succeeded in life and even when I have succeeded, everything just seems to tumble down on me. I know it's my own fault. Did I even study for the EOYs like how I've studied for my common tests? Looking back, I feel extremely stupid that I didn't study hard enough for my common tests. With the stupid EOYs pulling my GPA down all the way. But it's fine isn't it? I've never once gotten above 2.6. Wow? Yup, wow.

Guess it really sucks to really, really try for something and when the results appear, it never turns out right. Never. I'm not suicidal neither am I some happy aura that walks around in people life. I'm simply a guy that can't sing for nuts. Wonder if my friends think that my singing is nice at all, don't tell me tomorrow, "OMG BEN YOUR SINGING DAMN NICE." Won't work, LOL. But, hahaha it doesn't matter. If I can criticize people and they can take it, I see no reason why I won't be able to.

Coming to the end of year 4, this is the first time I have ever had a class that I wouldn't want to leave. I can forgive insults that are hurled at me, I can joke about myself having the lowest GPA in class, I can and I will do everything that will make people around me happy. But eventually happiness would deplete and that is just how I'll turn back into that grey form of Ben. Sad, lonely and lifelessly playing DoTA all day long.

I love my life, I love my friends and I love myself. But it's time like this where even me, myself, would be sad. It's 12.00 and I would magically turn happy again now. :) Thanks should go the world of happiness. You'll never quit being my loyal friend.

Yours Truly,
Ben

Sunday, October 24, 2010

I'm lying.

Sara Bareilles just made me feel so much in love with her. Her music video of "King Of Anything" was so filled with happiness that it made my hair stand on ends. Holy mother of life.

Hotness.

Check out her music video of King of Anything. Click Here! You won't regret a thing.

It's a pity her legs ain't long. But I bet her personality would be awesome~

All my life I've tried to make everybody happy,
While I just hurt and hide,
Waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn to decide.

She's very good at acoustics?

Been listening to King Of Anything for the past two weeks. It's THAT good.

Shall get my sister to download her album. IMMEDIATELY.

Her cover of "Single Ladies". Click Here!

Also, her live performance of "Gravity". Click Here!

P.S. I will probably buy her album. Since I'm such a big fan. :) Don't follow the example of bad Ben okay?

Well, my Saturday was full of crap and slack. While my Sunday was so damn tiring, I shivered in the breeze for one whole hour just because wushu was so tiring and I haven't been training for such a long time. Almost vomited. :\ But, Sara Bareilles cheered me up! :)

Yours Truly,
Ben

Friday, October 22, 2010

When I look at professional dancers, I don't get jealous.

I really can't take it anymore. No more nonsense, why does everything have to come down to this. You know I AM the biggest jerk in the world and there is definitely that someone out there that will treat you better than I will.

Love. I don't and I won't feel it anymore, for now.

I'm an egotistical bastard that only cares for himself and has a huge attitude problem. I seek attention so much that whenever I type stuff on Facebook, I ensure that at least a few people like my comment/status. No one can ever satisfy me, thus I'm born to be single. And FYI, I'm not gay. :)

Oh man, I just feel for that dog in "Paranormal Activity 2".

Scary~

I'm sorry to break it to you babe, but I'm not drowning. But there is definitely that someone there to save you. So, stop being sad anymore. I'm not worth it, at all.

bunnyfood: (via theanimalblog:Antonio Galati)

SO CUTE.

HAHAHAHAHAHA, OMG. FUNNY.

bunnyfood: (via dogsandcatslivingtogether:mudainodqnment)

OMG. CUTE CUTE CUTE.

This is me lazing in my house.

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

This is so damn cute. Click here!

Anyway, I just had the most painful facial in my life. Imagine myself enjoying the front part of it, busy snoring away. After that being awaken by smooth hands pinching away pimples with her fingernails. Pretty ironic, but I quite enjoyed it. :) Although it was as painful as hell but she was rather rough and could see my face cringe whenever it was painful.

Minato's attack.

But wonderfully, it was the mask that made me feel better again. Left the place feeling v hole-y and bought Mocha which dramatically increased how I felt for the whole day.

Naruto's wind thing.

Killer Bee's 8-Tailed Beast.

I can't help but feel left out whenever I'm not with my friends. It's just that they are such a crazy bunch of people and without them, I won't have anyone to complain to or tell them anything under the sun. They're just so unforgettable and I really don't want any of this to end. Could we please hang out all the time? :(

Credits for Naruto pictures: Gamespot.com
Credits for animal pictures: fuckyeahcuteanimals.tumblr.com

Yours Truly,
Ben

Thursday, October 21, 2010

I'm starting to love sleeping late at night.

Well, yesterday was a relatively fun day. Excluding the fact that I had to wake up early in the morning just to do stupid Chinese examination papers. I know my dad wants me to score an A for the Higher Chinese Examination. But I'm naturally stupid right? Sorry for being such a failure. Thanks, I think only a handful of people have actually called me that in my face. But, who cares~ You have opinions and you are entitled to them. But I never asked for them right? :)

I carried someone's bag all around.

Someone being shy?

After that, went out to spend money again. I'm really broke now. Yup, we went to City Hall and bought lunch to eat by the trademark squirting fountains. After everyone was done buying food, me and someone were still buying Subway as the queue was long and we went to draw money. After that, our group of friends were scolded by this cleaner auntie. Don't be mistaken, she is a very nice person.

Fail model, don't be fooled but she is actually tip-toeing. :)

But here is what she said...
"EY DON'T BLOCK THE WAY CAN. PEOPLE WANT TO WALK ONE YOU KNOW?"
Friend: "Sorry."
Her: "DON'T SAY SORRY? YOU ALL GOT GO SCHOOL ONE RIGHT? NO BRAIN-THINKING?" ( Holds two fingers to her forehead )
Me: "What the f*?"

I like this picture.

I like this too.

I think we 3 always come out epicly in a picture together.

After that, while we were sitting by the fountain, we saw her scolding other passerbys. Quite epic as we wanted to stalk her but the plan failed as she had already disappeared. After that, walked around Raffles Place where someone continuously took pictures of us. After that, slacked at Pasir Ris for 3 whole hours. Saw the most sexily dressed yogurt selling woman and being the jerk I am, I stared at them with frequent slaps from a certain someone. After that, watched that certain someone eat Kentucky Fried Chicken ( KFC ) and went back home.

Today, we had 3 hours of sexy time together with our beloved hokarma. Then, i started saying "SIAO EYYYYYYY" rather sexily. Tomorrow we're going to start the trend by starting the lesson with the quoted text. After that, went for the planned Pasir Ris outing that was planned yesterday. Well, we had lunch in school and procrastinated a little before finally heading out in the hazy weather.

I wonder where this place is. But I think it's when we're walking out of school. As you can see, I'm carrying other people's stuff again.

Group photo~

At first it was like..

Then,

LOL.

After everyone was so tired.

The Ben Cat.

And to a certain someone in a certain place in a certain class, you're not by yourself. You have many friends that have treasured you for what you are. Don't even think about anything bad because, you're unique on your own and nothing can change that fact. Cheer up alrights.

Here's a bunny. CUTE.

Yours Truly,
Ben

Monday, October 18, 2010

I don't want to learn to dance.

I think this is me?

I'm on the top of a circus? Lame.

I look really retarded standing in front of the mirror and practicing how to move like a robot. But, practice makes perfect? I know you guys don't support me. :) HAHAHA. But, today was a fun day, except for that BORING Chinese talk. Almost all of my friends are not even qualified to take it except for the (一人GET 19 POINTS WORH) and also, the one that secretly mug and get A+ for Chemistry. Looks can be deceiving.

I need to go for facial soon. :(

After that, caught a free movie screened by the movie. I really thought the father didn't die. But, he did. If I was that child, I would have cried terribly for two whole years. That's just fate right? Screw fate.

I'm fugly boy.

Udders.

Anyway, after all those school stuff, we went off to Siglap~ They originally planned to go for Udders but we went to the food court nearby. Someone was eating breakfast at 1pm and someone got some spaghetti. I bought tomato spaghetti, plain as balls. Then, we headed off to Udders where we had a mass picture spam. Someone came later after he had his lunch. That certain someone suggested we go to a certain playground for some fun. It was an enjoyable experience? :)

I'm sorry but this doesn't make me drool.

After that, walked someone home and then walked home. Yup, I walked home. Saw 12 pass by me a few times and was really tempted but, PERSEVERED. So after that reached home and my ass quickly collected the nutrients of my wooden seat and then, I've been seating here since then.

Our work of art.

So pretty! :)

This guy damn act cute.

Acting cute again.

And again.

But someone tries to follow in his footsteps. But fail. :(

Well, someone's on msn talking to me. Talking about stuff and that person just doesn't seem to want to sleep. I should be off to sleep so, yup. I'm the biggest camera whore in the world? It's okay, someone's always there to take pictures of me. :)

Thanks for such a wonderful time today. :) I'm really going to miss 4F next year.

Credits: Click Here!

Good cover of Club Can't Handle Me/Dynamite Mash-up: Click Here!

Yours Truly,
Ben

Sunday, October 17, 2010

I want to stay at home all day.

DoTA 2. Wow~ Awesome on the surface but what would it turn out to be? Guess I just have to wait and find out.

Awesome.

I like her back.

Credits for pictures: Click Here.

Anyway, I don't really care what you think anymore. You could put your spoon in there and she won't say anything. But when I put my spoon into the curry, you and her stared at me. So I can't do anything wrong? So what if I want to walk down the bad side of history and show some attitude? I want to learn to be a adult the hard way, am I not allowed to?

$\M/ hmm. sana may bagong drowingsiPRITS. :))$
This is cute.

HAHA, quite true.

By the way, don't forget to check out Oat Meal's website!

Also, Sam Tsui's latest cover! Click Here! DAMN GOOD.

I've a confession, I'm addicted to Twitter. Facebook doesn't seem so awesome anymore. :\ Oops. Well, my life rocks. :)

Meow.

P.S. I can't forget about shivering.

Yours Truly,
Ben

Friday, October 15, 2010

I hate chocolate milk. :)

I'm still suffering the after effects of class chalet. Sigh, how I wish it could last forever. But it did last forever. Ironic much? It's really hard putting it in words but guess some people would understand themselves better. However, I still love shivering. ;)

memoriesovereverything: that body kit is tough

Awesome cars with the sexiest body kits.

Slap Jack. Yesterday at someone's house.

Here goes the less emotional post of mine. Well, finally the papers are given out to us. I'm not exactly very pleased with my results. From the first paper to the last paper, the marks indicated were in descending order. No As at all. But seriously, what's the point of studying if all of us simply memorise stuff for the sake of scoring As and A+s. Most disappointingly, my best subjects totally failed me but what can I do? Studied so hard for them and basically, the saying of bittersweet ain't true after all. :)

Agreed.

I'm really tempted to post class chalet pictures but sticking to the theme of my blog, shall find cute animals once again. Sadly, pictures from my phone can no longer connect to my CPU until next year so glamorous pictures of people can not be featured on my blog.

Since there ain't no glamorous people on my blog, shall post mine! :D

That's OK -- I didn't expect to see you here, either.

Lion.

AHHHHHHHHHHH. This made me smile.

Initially, I was asked out for a LAN date with 10 other guys. FYI, I'm not gay. However, after the release of the exam papers, I had to make a decision to go with either them or with the basketball girls. After changing my mind six times, I ran after the guys.

ARGH. CUTE ASSES.

Dedicating a paragraph to you, I'm really sorry. Basically it's pointless typing anymore words here because even the Berlin Wall, the Great Wall of China or even the surface of the Earth would be unable to withhold how much I would like to write the word 'sorry'.

LOOK AT HIS FUR.

Checking the papers and looking at some people, I realized how lonely I was. But, that would be an introvert's benefit right? Alone. I like being alone. :) Guess whether you are an extrovert or an introvert, the results of that test are just too accurate, thus, some things just don't change.

Here is two paragraphs for you guys to think about. If you don't get it, I won't bother explaining it to you. Sometimes when the police needs help, there are always people that would be standing by your side, helping to stop the thief or whatever. It's just that at these times of need, the police needs to stay focused, but even as he is focused, the distracting sounds of people chattering or maybe the Mass Rapid Transport's "Train is coming, train is coming, train is coming! Stand in line, love your ride~" automated response would start playing.

But he simply loves his job and he just wants to continue with what he is doing. Even though the bystanders make way for him, but he just needs to think on the job. "What to do? Do I shoot?" Nope, he doesn't. Because he understands that the bystanders would never harm him and that's why he loves his job.

Yours Truly,
Ben