I'm very happy now!! ^^
Maybe some people will know what it feels like to always be second to another person. I've never once succeeded in life and even when I have succeeded, everything just seems to tumble down on me. I know it's my own fault. Did I even study for the EOYs like how I've studied for my common tests? Looking back, I feel extremely stupid that I didn't study hard enough for my common tests. With the stupid EOYs pulling my GPA down all the way. But it's fine isn't it? I've never once gotten above 2.6. Wow? Yup, wow.
Guess it really sucks to really, really try for something and when the results appear, it never turns out right. Never. I'm not suicidal neither am I some happy aura that walks around in people life. I'm simply a guy that can't sing for nuts. Wonder if my friends think that my singing is nice at all, don't tell me tomorrow, "OMG BEN YOUR SINGING DAMN NICE." Won't work, LOL. But, hahaha it doesn't matter. If I can criticize people and they can take it, I see no reason why I won't be able to.
Coming to the end of year 4, this is the first time I have ever had a class that I wouldn't want to leave. I can forgive insults that are hurled at me, I can joke about myself having the lowest GPA in class, I can and I will do everything that will make people around me happy. But eventually happiness would deplete and that is just how I'll turn back into that grey form of Ben. Sad, lonely and lifelessly playing DoTA all day long.
I love my life, I love my friends and I love myself. But it's time like this where even me, myself, would be sad. It's 12.00 and I would magically turn happy again now. :) Thanks should go the world of happiness. You'll never quit being my loyal friend.
Yours Truly,
Ben
